Hmmm well……….swore id never blog but things change as we all know so here goes

My time in second life has been overall a wonderful experience that includes all the bad that has happened with all the good….. A bit about me to start with… I came to sl as most did to find an escape, a relief as it were, from my first life.. I started out in sl long ago couple years or more now was a very vanilla existence here I made many friends but still something seemed to be missing  I wont get into who I was and no names will be given but I did have fun then but as I have already said something was just missing….. Now fast forward to nichole… nichole was created to explore something new in sl …BDSM …. For those who don’t already know that. I went to a lot of places met a few people but one true friend stands out to begin with her name is Paula I met her within the first week of being in sl she and I kinda just bonded instantly she also was trying out bdsm for the first time. Neither one of us have “RL Experience” which to me and this is my opinion and it is my blog so Im entitled to it…. Most of the people into bdsm in sl that claim to have a lot of experience in rl with it are well how do I put this ummm lying…. Again my opinion but again my blog

So now to those people that claim they have all this experience and practice it all the time in rl my ? To you is WHY DO YOU DO IT HERE, doesn’t make a lot of sense to me now I am sure there are some that do but my guess is most of them that say they do really more or less have been bound a few times or maybe spanked in rl which as we all know is not BDSM.. Anyway sorry about the rant there…. Now back on topic

ME….HEHE…J J ……I am submissive by nature I think and have only been sub in sl until very recently but ill get into that in a bit… I have had 4 owners in sl 3 mistress’ and one Master. My first Mistress again no names here but lets just say I was very naïve and she in my opinion took advantage of that and instead of loving and building me up to be a great sub I felt more as though she tore me down and used my insecurities to get what she wanted.. My second Mistress was a really awesome person we had much fun together personal reasons arose and we parted ways still care about her a lot and wish her the best you know who you are. Then Came a Master. I devoted nearly 8 months to this man and as you all know that is like an eternity here. He had a big family I knew that going in and in the beginning things were good but after awhile things went bad my feeling is he lost sight of his wants and desires in sl and became cold and heartless he also is one of those im a real life master types and as ive stated my opinion on that already you can suffice that did not help our relationship. Enough about this man all I will say about him is I am glad to have served him and been in his family I made many friends there that though we do not talk anymore due to his wishes I still care for some of them deeply and miss them… now fast forward to present day

Now I am going to take some time to tell you all about my love Jay she has been with me through all of this through everything in my life that has mattered she is not just my sl wife but she is my best friend in rl her and her hubby I have known for over 20 years but enough about rl in sl jay is my rock she is my “go to” person she is always there to love me care for me and help me and I love her dearly and that will never change Jay if you read this please know you are just as much the reason I am who I am as well I am Giggles

Now back the current topic ….that’s right you guessed it ….ME….. Now in my second life I am happy… along time ago I met someone and well she captured me this was before I went with the heartless Master I was with anyway moving forward that was over a year ago that she caught me at stone haven island and well things just didn’t work out then between us ill leave it at that…but I always kept in touch with this person and yes its Yar….giggles….. Yar and I were friends for a long time and now she is My Mistress and I love her and will always try to be the best I can be…….Yar has always helped me more than she ever knew when I needed to talk she was there always though I didn’t always like what she had to say I listened as I look up to her and respect her opinions on life love and everything else…. It was October 21.2009 that I was given the honor to wear her collar… I cherish it more than anything I have ever had and yes it is truly an honor for me to be hers. I only hope I can continue to grow and please her though I know I will have bad days as we all I am confidant that our relationship will only get stronger. Now being allowed to wear Yar‘s Collar has also brought me into perhaps the biggest family in sl and of course the most loving one. To all of you I love you all and cant imagine life without you and Goddess you are the most intelligent loving understanding caring witty person I think ive ever met and I truly am in awe of you. And thank you for allowing me to be in your family..JNow I know this has been a jumbled mess of thoughts and feelings but hey if you know me then you know that’s just me being me….lol…J any way this is my first ever blog and any comments or suggestions will be greatly appreciated and I hope to post regularly… thanks for reading J J J J J J J

~ by Nicki Aker on February 7, 2010.

3 Responses to “”

  1. Good start Nic. I can’t wait to read more.

  2. Nic this is very lovely and i cant wait to read more. Ill be on SL shortly. This is really sweet Nic please post more soon

  3. Really glad we reconnected, Nichole. Looking forward to reading more here too!

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