well here it is almost 2 years into Nichole’s sl experience and her bdsm life, and i have found something here that i never thought i would.  As ive said in many posts before that i have found my home in sl with Mistress Yar but now i have to add to this thought for the past two years its been a nonstop bdsm ride with various “owners” but only recently have i truly felt as though i belonged. As ive said in the past but just to show what i mean ill give you an example I told Yar that lately i havent really been feeling into the bdsm aspect of my sl. now that doesn’t mean I don’t want to be apart of it what it means is aspects of it at this time didn’t appeal to me such as and pretty much mainly was longterm bondage ive lately only been feeling like a scene player, well anyway, i talked to Yar about this and how ive been feeling and her response to me was this, hun “ive been wondering how long it was going to take you to realise that you need to take a break from this, you’ve been ging at it nonstop for a long time and if you keep trying to force it you wont enjoy it and i get my enjoyment out of you enjoying it”. well needless to say this actually caught me off guard as ive always been told that “im the Domme/dom and it’s what I want that matters so you have to do what I want and it doesn’t matter if you want to or not”. so for her to tell me that just reassured me even more that she loves me and understands me and cares about me not cares about just about what I can do for her. so here i am a “week or so into my “break” and i feel just as loved and just as cared for as i did before . Yar has shown me that I don’t have to be the perfect little bondage slave to be loved and that my happiness matters so for now im on  a break you may see bound from time to time but only for a short time maybe ill get back to liking long-term stuff again soon maybe it will take a while im not sure but i know that to my Mistress it’s not the basis of our relationship she owns me I know it and she knows it and that’s all that matters to us so Mistress if you read this I want you to know that my love and respect for you grow daily and I only want to make you happy and im glad you understand me anyway ive been rambling again so im gonna go ……:)


~ by Nicki Aker on April 20, 2010.

3 Responses to “A BREAK”

  1. yesterday i hit on your blog and i read it today. i can agree to so much that you wrote, nic. Like you i simply feel blessed to be part of such a great family. I enjoyed reading 🙂 And i’m happy to know you.
    Love from Dio

  2. yesterday I hit on your blog and I read it today. I can agree to so much that you wrote, nic. Like you I simply feel blessed to be part of such a great family. I enjoyed reading your blog :-). And I am happy to know you!
    Love from Dio

  3. Love the blog post, hope you enjoy your break and I will see you when you get back.

    Love Jam

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